My name is Ryan Donnelly and I'm an addict. I've been clean now for over 4 years. I went from an extreme addiction and nearly ending my life to living a happy, healthy, meaningful one. I'm am proof that opiate addiction can be beat. I do not like to say the word "cured" because I'm not cured. I'll never be cured of my addiction. I'm clean now for over 4 years, and I've taken those 4 years one day at a time.
I am the definition of an addict. I can not have one alcoholic drink. I can not take 1 pill. I need to get drunk, or pop enough painkillers to put myself in a stupor. This is why I am addict. I still have cravings on occasion, but I've learned that being an addict I can not engage in my "pleasures". There is no good that can come from testing the waters again, or just telling myself I'll have one drink.
There were times when I tried to quit opiates by slowly lowering my dosage. The longest I would get is a few days, but that soon fell apart. The weekend would come, or a party would be coming up, or I'd just tell myself, "1 more pill, and I'll be done." I'd instantly mess up my "getting clean" streak. Once I went over the amount I promised myself, then I just said "screw it". I'll continue using my normal amount, and will start cutting back next Monday. This would happen often, but again within a few days I'd go over my amount and continue the cycle. Lowering my dose, taking one extra dose, then going back to my original level. I would compromise with myself and say I'll take two extra pills now, and won't take one later, which didn't happen. If any of this sounds familiar with you, then realize I've been in your shoes.
This is my personal opinion on going through withdrawal. First I must make it clear that I am not a doctor, this is my own personal opinion from my own personal experience. I feel quitting cold turkey was the only way I'd ever get clean. I unfortunately didn't have a choice and was forced into going cold turkey and boy was it hell! It was like 10 days of feeling the worst I've ever felt, but once that 10 days was over the relief couldn't be put into words. I knew I was now clean, and I never wanted go through that again. Not the lying, not the stealing, not the addiction, and certainly not the withdrawal. I learned my lesson and knew I had a second chance at life.
Tapering works, and so does other prescription medication that help with opiate addiction. Both of those systems work, but I knew being an addict they wouldn't work for me. I suffered for a week rather than prolonging the inevitable suffering. I know what the hell of withdrawal is like, which is why I created CalmSupport. The CalmSupport Withdrawal Aid Program along with the Lifestyle guide was created to help prepare your body for withdrawal. I know the pain you are going through, and the fear that comes along with it. I can tell there is a light at the other end of the tunnel. Don't give up on yourself.
Quitting cold turkey is not for everyone which is why it's important to speak to your Doctor before you decide to quit.