Emotions can be very scary things to face, especially if you have been abusing opiates for a prolonged period of time. Many people do not want to face situations or the way those situations make them feel so they mask them with opiates. At first, these drugs do the trick and provide a sense of comfort, but they turn on you very quickly. They can easily affect your personality and your judgement. Opiates can destroy relationships with others because the person you always were starts to disappear as your tolerance and addiction grows. Yes, some of you may be overly affectionate when abusing opiates but it may not be coming from a genuine place.
I can not tell you how important it is to share your feelings and to learn how to react to your emotions. Finding someone that you can talk to at a moments notice can greatly increase your chances of staying clean. This is why I tell people to find someone that has been through opiate addiction and can relate to the way you feel and the things you are experiencing. There is something so comforting about having someone who has been there that you can call on when things get rough.
Many people I talk to have underlying issues for their abuse. They have been through traumatic situations in their life and the opiates were helping them cope with these feelings in the beginning. This usually does not last long and soon you may be much worse off than you were when you started. It is always recommended to find professional help to talk about traumatic experiences that you have lived through. If you are feeling suicidal and extremely depressed, do not keep these feelings in. You can always call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255. They are open 24 hours, 7 days a week and available in both English and Spanish. Your life is worth living, do not give up on yourself!
The fear of facing your emotions will be a hurdle that you will have to get past. To make sense of the situation you are dealing with, it's important to be sober and understand your feelings. They say you can never be truly happy and feel real joy until you feel sorrow. Living a life completely numb to the world does no good for you or the people that care about you. Put down the drugs that leave you a shell of the person you have become. In most cases, when the numbness dissipates, you will be amazed at how great and happy you feel. It is time to face your fears and emotions and free yourself from the life addicted to opiates.