A few times during the year seems to be popular for people to break their addiction. New Years is one of the most popular times. Something about a fresh start for everyone makes right now the best time to get clean. I am a firm believer that "now" is always the best time to start over no matter what month you are in. But for the majority of people who are pushing themselves to become better people in the new year, I want to share some thoughts with you.
Addiction is something that we are all familiar with. It is that voice in your head that convinces you time and time again that you need the substance. It tells you that you have nothing else, that you will never be happy again without it. That life really isn't that great and this substance is what is helping you get by. Of course this voice is a fabrication of the chemical imbalances the drugs have created. It makes you more depressed and anxious than you ever were before you used. The withdrawals make you very uncomfortable and uncontrollably sick, which is one of the main reasons you continue to use.
When it comes to recovery and the hold that addiction has on us, it is important to look into yourself and understand what you really want out of life. It is far easier to give up and just live the life you have made for yourself. It is easy to continue down the path of using and living a numb existence. If you are ok with being a statistic and a prisoner to a substance for the rest of your life, then getting clean may never be a reality for you. For me, I was so blinded by the drugs and so deep into my own lies that I never realized what kind of life was out there until it was either life or death. I chose to survive and when I did that, I let go of everything that kept me a prisoner to my addiction. What kept me addicted was my giant ego and the belief that I knew best.
When we are in active addiction, we think we know everything. Or it may be that we are afraid to listen to people who are doing the right thing. We become so ashamed by what our addiction has turned us into, that we start to believe the lies we tell ourself. It is important to realize that we don't have the answers when we are actively using. We need to listen to professionals and those who have been successful in recovery. They are doing something right because they have what you want. They are living a life free of opiates. They knew that they had a problem and surrendered to it. They let their ego go and got help. When you are willing to do whatever it takes to get that help, it will be yours. I wish you all a Happy & Healthy New Years free of addiction.