I hear it multiple times per day, “I want to get clean for...” and the rest is filled in with everything under the sun expect the word that matters most, "me". You can look at the destruction opioids have caused in your life. The terrible decisions you have made and the repercussions. Looking at the ruined relationships and the loss of trust from friends and family members. How your bank account has diminished and losing that dream job came at the worst possible time. You begin to doubt yourself and what has happened to your life. If you are a parent, you may find it hard to ever look into your child's eyes with a clean mind and have the energy to play with them. It most likely upsets you that you can not be the mom or dad you know they deserve and who you know you can be. The thought of this alone, may make you continue to use to try to block out those feelings.
People tell me everyday why they want to get clean. They feel like they have been so selfish during their active addiction. I by no means argue with the people I speak with. When you are an addict, you are extremely selfish. You take and do as you please in order to get what you need to keep going. You hurt many people along the way and sometimes break relationships that can never be mended. What addicts need to understand is that the only time you can get clean is when YOU decide YOU are ready. You must have the will to get clean for yourself, before you can help someone else. When you decide to get clean for yourself, that is when success is around the corner. Early recovery without a doubt will be the most selfish time during your addiction. It is this way for good reasons and I will explain.
Recovery is a time for you to work on your own personal issues. What drives you to use? How can you make yourself a better person? Are you willing to do whatever it takes to live opiate free for today? You may not have the answers to the first two questions and in the beginning of recovery and that is ok. But you HAVE to say yes to the third part which is are you willing to live opiate free for today. If you are willing to do whatever it takes to live clean of opiates for today, you will succeed. Going into recovery is like going into the unknown. There are many things to consider. If you act as though your life depends on it which it does, nothing can stop you from achieving your ultimate goal of remaining drug free for today. Stop living for the future, and realize that being clean of opiates is something you will need to handle on a day to day basis. Make realistic goals. If the goals you create are far fetched or are very hard to attain, you may be setting yourself up for failure. A simple goal of staying clean for 12 hours at a time is outstanding. You will get stronger over time and things will get easier.
Make your recovery your number one priority every single day. It comes before everything else and the reason for this is because if you don't, you will end up back where you were. You will become sick and may lose the people around you. The house you live in and the car you drive will be gone but most importantly you will not be happy or productive to yourself or the people you love. This is a life-long change and your new life can be more incredible than you can ever imagine. It's time to get clean for YOU.